Today I take my life,
Hopeful, that the pain will now subside,
It’s just been lonely and dreadful,
May be I will finally get free tonight.I don’t know why I took so much time to do,
What I should have done so much earlier,
May be I was afraid to die,
It’s amusing. Living was so much scarier.Sorry mom, I just couldn’t do it,
No therapy would help me through it,
My - now burnt- diary, my tear soaked pillow,
Knew more about me, than you could ever know me,
I just wanted to feel some emotions mom,
All that you could provide me were some more sedatives.And Sorry your Attagirl is leaving Dad,
Shattering all the dreams that you ever had,
I know I was your most precious jewel,
You would do anything to bring me back,
But believe me, I am going to a better place Dad,
If nothing else, at least, I can assure you of that.There’s only one regret that I have,
Wish they didn’t think I was mean,
I wanted to befriend all of them,
But the introvert in me came in between.
So I would sit by the college park, all alone,
Sometimes crying, sometimes reading.
Looking at the heavenly sky sometimes,
Thinking why was I so strange-behaving.Nobody liked me, it was a nightmare,
This exile only got unforgiving glares,
There was only this guy sitting across,
Sometimes he would smile at me in class,
Sometimes he would utter a few words,
Mostly asking if I was doing alright,
May be he didn’t want me to feel bad,
I think he just pitied my sorrow state.I just wanted one single person by my side,
Who understood what I felt inside,
A friend who could listen to my silence,
Someone who could deal with my fits,
Yes, you both tried your best to comfort,
But you were just incapable of it.Please don’t cry, please don’t be sad,
Be happy, now I won’t have any pain to endure,
Please do take care of yourselves,
When I won’t be able to be there for,
And please forgive me this one last time,
I promise, I won’t make any mistakes, any more.~RavS