You Will Never Make Me Proud

I’ve tried to give you everything I’ve ever had,
My time, my love, my advice - good and bad.
But all I have always got from you in return,
Is disgrace, disappointment and heartburn.
You’ve been a liar, an addict, a thug & a thief,
And I always had to pay for your mischieves.
I have forgotten and forgiven your every crime,
In the delusion that this might be the last time.

Now I don’t know how to handle even myself,
What’s the point of even trying to help?
I feel like a cocoon holding a black hole,
I want to leave, but I know you will implode.
But if I don’t leave, you will eat me alive.
So either I perish with you or watch you die.
You have broken my heart and filled it with void,
And it’s so painful to know that i have no choice.

I never expected you to share my pains,
I just wanted my efforts to not go in vain.
You have shattered my confidence, to such an extent,
Why am I related to you, every single day I repent.
I have often wondered if it’s just my fate,
Other times I have questioned if it’s my mistake?
I have hoped against hope, but am convinced now.
I’ll never see the day when you’ll ever make me proud.

~RavS

## Some things can only be expressed indirectly. ##