Unconditional love is like distilled water. Perfect in concept but impractical in reality. And what use is that love unless it is adultered by a pinch of possessiveness, jealousy, expectations. insecurity, dread, anger, cravings… Let’s leave unconditional love for the Gods and the Immortal Fables. Let’s anticipate a little bit in love and let’s be disappointed when that doesn’t happen. What’s wrong in conditional love? What’s wrong? ~RavS ...
Is it wrong if he doesn’t want to see a single speck in your eyes? Is it improper if he can’t bear even a slight quiver in your voice? Is it unfair if he wants to protect you all the time? Is it asking for too much, if he wants to share the pensive part of your life? If it is, then for him, I sincerely apologize. You see. My protagonist, He doesn’t know any other way to live, and love. ...
Sometimes I go back and read our old conversations. Not yesterday’s or last week’s, But at least an year old. And, I concentrate only on what you said. Just your texts. Your words. Your smileys. From them, I instinctively know what I would have said. I remember the exact words that made you laugh, frown, yawn or frightened. It’s always, almost like a pattern. As if that conversation was a game of ping pong, and I was playing on both sides of the table. ...
Sorry. And that’s all I have to say because I have understood that every excuse I make that saves me from the wrath of my loved ones also slowly takes them away inch by inch until the dear ones no more remain the near ones and vice versa, leaving me with an unbruised ego but no one to show it to and so it’s better I endure a hit of your fury and savor your wounds than risk losing you forever at the cost of something that would ultimately become just a little bubble in the murky waters of long term incoherent memories. ...
she calls herself earth, fire & water, and i silently laugh at her innocent stupidity. she doesn’t understand that she isn’t limited to just these elemental entities, she goes beyond that. she is a universe in herself. a universe that’s constantly expanding through the cosmos, encompassing the dimensions way outside the capabilities of human imagination. if i were to explore her, i would need a billion lives just to unwrap a tiny portion of her intricacies. ...
Why do I need to be happy all the time? All this running around after happiness is so tiring. So sometimes I just sit down and let myself be sad. I allow myself to accept that some things are not meant to be mine, howsoever hard I try to get them. I permit myself to feel my failures, I permit myself to feel my losses. And once in a while I let myself be sad without any reason at all. ...
Baby I am the rock, I am the salt. I am nickel, I am cobalt. You are the catalyst of my affinity, You are me-phile, my vanity, You are my lust of insanity. ~RavS
I look at all these words written by masters, And they depress me more than they inspire. They fill me with self doubts. Would I ever be able to write something even half as good as this? Would someone ever love me even half as much as them? And what’s the point of writing? Everything that was ever to be said has already been said. Everything I ever write from today onwards would be a form of plagiarism. No idea is original. Not a single one. So why even try? Why keep excruciating yourself only to feel like a fraud in the end. ...
All I want is a beautiful death and someone to mourn when I am dead. ~RavS
You might not comprehend it today, But one day you will understand, Everything I did, or said or advised or cautioned against, It all had a common theme. And that was to make you win. Win battles, win hearts and win life. You might hate me right now, because it all seems so selfish. Like I did it all for myself. But you are young, and self absorbed. When you will start seeing life in a more sober light, you will get it. And you will get me. That I was right. For both of us. ...