I hope you find, for which you masturbate everyday.
But don’t drag me in your fantasies, I’ve my own hell to take care.
Don’t be an emotional parasite and drain me out.
Oh no baby, I am not your sex-doll to fuck around.
Yeah fine your girlfriend jilted you,
I wonder why your parents screwed up too.
Why do you want me to clean up every time you spill shit,
You didn’t listen to me, so that’s what you deserved - bitch,
So cry your tears of croc or grab your kicked crotch,
But leave me alone now, I don’t care much,
Can’t you look through your eye sockets and watch me incinerate in pain?
So why do you ask again and again.
And again and again and again …

I have been fucked up by universe so many times,
May be I have become a slut practically speaking,
The only virginity left in me is not being malign,
The emotional arousal they pump in, might break even that hymn.
I try hard, but the rage in me refuses to sink,
Why am I dealt the cards I can not play with?
Why was I lied, what did they get to cheat,
Why couldn’t they let me Be, when I could have lived?
Now I am a jigsaw puzzle whose pieces have been missed.
It’s too late for a stinky carcass to be fixed,
HEYYY… Just go live your fucking life and abandon me sulking here,
Pour some gasoline at the steps and flare up a matchstick.
Leave me scorching in flames and lock the bloody gates.
Let me die, shout - Burn and Burn.
And burn and burn and burn…

No I don’t need saving any more,
I think I have started enjoying this hell hole,
Fate put me in this spot, it’s my time to take my revenge,
I refuse to make the lemonade out of the life’s served lemons,
The fate is too strong and may be the time is long gone,
But I won’t let the destiny write my life’s final pages.
I will char myself to death if that’s what it’s going to take.
You also come and join the world as they watch me strip naked,
And laugh and clap like them as I slowly annihilate,
And when the show is over and you come to your hungover senses,
Your guilt trip might send you crawling back to collect my soiled ashes,
Bawl against it, put it on your face or throw it in the gutter,
I just don’t care. I don’t care.
Don’t care. Don’t care. Don’t care.

~RavS

## My most profane-full creation yet. Wasn’t sure if I should make it public, but it almost accurately describes what I feel sometimes. I hope people who shouldn’t read it, don’t get to read it. ##